Let's go crazy
I think one of my most endearing qualities is that I’m a hypocrite. I am constantly infuriated by people who don’t understand their relationship with me is parasocial, or don’t understand parasocial relationships. I’m also infuriated that I’m required to explain parasocial relationships when the entire internet is right there in the next screen when you search the term. Fucking baffling to me that there are people who don’t know what it means but instead of looking it up, will ask me to explain it to them.
My most endearing quality is that I’m self -absorbed to the point of narcissism. I’m not a narcissist. A narcissist would say that. But I regularly check on my narcissism status with therapists. They say it’s unlikely to develop. I’m not not a narcissist because I’m not self-absorbed. I am self-absorbed. I’m just missing a few other items on the checklist. Sometimes they try to tell me that I’m not self-absorbed, that I’m self-aware, reflective even. When they do this I stare at them until they agree that I’m self-absorbed, until they agree that this isn’t self-deprecation, it’s self-awareness and reflection. Let’s be real here, I am profoundly self-absorbed. It pays the bills.
I’m also a fucking hypocrite. Here’s why:
