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Dusty Phillips's avatar

I can't hit the "heart" button on this one. I'll just say thanks.

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Melissa Hediger's avatar

This is exactly it. Reading this was a combination of nodding and feeling punched in the stomach.

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Natalie's avatar

thank you for sharing your words with us all the time. <3

they always make me have such profound feelings.

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Sally H's avatar

This is courage. And heartbreak.

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MaryAnn Hendrickson's avatar

Thanks. This one got me. Before she killed herself, I did this sort of thing looking for my sister. Feeling desperate, a little out of control, scared, angry, fucked up. You hit it.

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Lauren Hough's avatar

i'm so fucking sorry

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MaryAnn Hendrickson's avatar

Ty. I read this and I had some old, scared feelings again. I want you to know that yr work is powerful. Keep it up. ❤

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Laura (LD)'s avatar

Crushing. Thinking of you.

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Dorrine's avatar

This is exactly what it's like, becoming the monster while trying not to. Hoping they will understand but how can they. We don't even understand. I'm sorry you are still in the battle. We were fortunate to find a way out

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Khải Đơn's avatar

Thank you Lauren, the writing is so powerful, bursting with sadness :( I love this piece.

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Javachik's avatar

No words, just a message that you’ve got a gift, such a gift.

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Julia Park Tracey's avatar

The monster killed my son. <3 you

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Lauren Hough's avatar

fucking monsters. love you too

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Scott Mitchel May's avatar

Holy. Shit. This is why I will be a fan till I’m grass

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Marilyn's avatar

I held my breath reading this and thinking of my cousin who met the Monster. Thank you,

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Lauren Hough's avatar

i'm so sorry

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Ally Hamilton's avatar

This makes my heart hurt. Been there and this is exactly it. My mom is gone now and the monster won in the end. Addiction is a fucking thief. Hugs to you and everyone dealing with this, it’s so painful xx

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Lela's avatar

You brave soul. Just sending a hug

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Khải Đơn's avatar

please keep writing here. I wait for reading your new work <3

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LMBR's avatar

This is so powerful, thank you.

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